IT'S ME, JESSIE!

I am Jessica E. Abdon, 16 years of living and I have been through so much experiences. I am futuristic and I have the eagerness in coping my dreams and the things that I wanted to have in short, I am ambitious. Yes, as what my teacher says to us he used to tell to his interviews that, "I am ambitious, in a positive way." The thing that really piques my attention in what he have said is that, "It will never be wrong if you were dreaming, because dreaming is like setting your goal. And the thing that will make you regret is when you let your dreams just a dream. In my understanding, make a way to make your dreams possible because you are the protagonist of your own story and God will only direct it. Who is Jessica, in her family she is a breadwinner, in her friends she is a jolly person and in their church she is a leader but in myself I am someone who is not yet really developed and still confused on who am I. How come I've been saying this? Yes, I know it's really funny to think that you, yourself until now you don't know who you are and has this face to introduced herself to others. At a young age, I used to learn how to manage our household, to cook food, to wash our clothes and to learn different household chores. My parents are both working so they have no time for managing our house. I have 2 younger sisters, I am respondible in being a role model to them. By the means of, I have to lead as well as guide them in any ways and to maintain my grades for not only to inspire them but to make my mama and papa proud of me. I must have the maintaining grades or if I can I must be on top. They don't pressure me in my studies maybe it's just on my ego that I have to be like that because I don't want them to be frustrated and disappointed to me. Sometimes, if we have this problems I used to sacrifice for my both sisters because that is what my parents told me. As long I can provide for the good of my siblings I have to sacrifice. In school or in my friends either they recognized me as the "kengkoy" in the group, someone that is very jolly and active in participating. I am proud of myself because they know mw as the person who is very brave in pretending that there is no burden I am carrying. I hate seeing myself begging for symphaty to others through crying though it is not really my intension. I believe if you have a problem in your house, you don't have to carry it through out your day because your just letting yourself be frown you have to skip from your comfort zone and enjoy. In our church, we have our community called CFC Youth For Christ. Lately, God discerned me through our former Chapter Head to be the Chapter Head of our chapter. It is a huge responsibility, it's hard to make the large number of youth to follow you. But I believe, in what God assigned to me, I know that he believes in me and that's the reason why he put me in this situation. I am not afraid to showcase and share he love that he has given to me through serving him and others. As far as I know myself right now, I am a brave girl, I am a shoulder to others and servant of our Dear Lord. I am not afraid of taking risk because I know when it comes to decision making my family is always there to help me, my friends who believes in me and God has a better plan more than I think for me. I am still looking for the real me, I am still getting to know myself and also developing my perdonal issues. No one is perfect, everyone commit mistakes but in every missteps there is always a lesson learned and I will treasure them. And one day, when I used to introduced myself again I will not be afraid and tell to everyone that I, I am Jessica E. Abdon, the real me.